You can't let it win. You have to take control.
OK, I will try, but what do you do when you feel like your heart has been torn out?
I did a lot this week, but also spent a lot of time doing nothing but sitting with my wife.
That's OK. I did what I needed to do.
My wife is going to try to go to work tomorrow. I think she will make it. She is starting the slow climb back towards normalcy. But, she is no where near that point. She is pale, and exhausted. She is weak, and gets tired very quickly.
I took her out for several drives this week, and forced her to do some stuff around the house, but didn't push her too hard. She is still spending most of her time on the couch watching TV and sleeping.
Last night, I loaded my equipment and set up at the Community center at the park where I played music for two hours for the teens of East Petersburg. It was a small turnout because of the cold weather and short notice, but everyone there danced, and that included me. Lots of fun. It was very cold, but we survived.
I felt pretty good playing the music last night and had fun with the kids and adults there.
I proved to myself that I could do it. My back isn't too sore today. I unloaded the car as soon as I got home instead of letting it stay in the car all night.
Today, I took pictures of my PA system and put it up for sale. The link is
here. It is a very good system and worth what I am listing it for. I am planning on replacing it with a lighter system that is powerful, and much easier to carry around. The cabinets I have now weigh 56 pounds each, and the case is almost 50 pounds. The replacements will be 35 pounds complete, and much more compact, thanks to new technology.
I decided not to get the
Fishman Solo unit because I don't want to spend the money. I can pick up this new stuff cheaper and use the money from the sale of my system to cover it.
My basement is very cold this time of year. It is finished, but I don't have any heat down there unless I either open the vents, or carry the space heaters down. The vents keep a lot of the heat from coming upstairs causing my wife to complain about being cold. The space heaters are expensive to use.
However, I need to isolate myself a bit and get some "Me" time. Also, my exercise machines are down there. The treadmill, the Total Gym, and the free weights.
I am toying with the idea of taking my guitars and amps down as well.
I did want to take the Helix panels down when I got them off. They would be placed on the tables for painting and cleaning. I would drape the tables of course.
So, stay tuned to see if I can get anything finished, or even started. My ADD is fighting me tooth and nail. Who will win?
I will......
I got this sweatshirt from my Dad and his second wife years ago. It is stretched out and worn out, but it's the only thing I have left from them. And, I like it!
