Another Tuesday

As I sit here trying to get motivated.
As I sit here drinking my protein/Dunkin Donuts decaf coffee with no sugar.

I wonder why I did this thing.

So, I will go back and read what I wrote.
How positive I was about the future.
How amazed I was at being able to tie my shoes.
How I could fit into a restaurant booth again.
How I could throw all my pills away.
How I could go out for a walk, do the dishes, vacuum, start a batch of chili, and go to work, all in one day.
How I could spend the day with my grand kids and not be dead tired the next day.
How I can lay on the floor of the garage on a piece of cardboard and work on my car or Helix and not get dizzy or nauseous.
How I can go without a meal and still be able to function.
How I can get hungry, and still eat a sensible meal instead of just jamming stuff down my throat.
How I can sit up in bed without rocking or planning.
How I feel so much better.
How I have a more positive outlook on life, a lot more of the time.
How I know I will come out of any gray day and not feel like killing myself.
How I have so much more patience with people now.
How I can stand up for an hour or more and be able to stand up for an hour or more!

Oh yeah, now I remember why I did this thing.

Life is good.

What I can do.

I spent Saturday on my school bus with a wrestling team. We went to the Lebanon area.
We left the school at 5:30am sharp, and returned at 7:15pm. Not so sharp.
I spent much of the day on the bus freezing my butt off. The outside temp was somewhere near 12 to 15 degrees the whole day.
The bus only gets warm when it's running down the road. If it is sitting, it cools down until there is no heat at all. We can't run the bus while it's sitting anyway, so I froze.
I took one short trip to the Sheetz to get coffee, and spent much of the day inside the gym watching the wrestlers.
The crowd was loud and there were kids running up and down the bleacher all the time I was there. People would walk right out in front of the stands so you couldn't see. It was a real mess.
But the worst part: The bathrooms.
They only had one men's room, and one ladies room for over 500 people! Can you imagine what that place was like by the end of the day? One of the toilet seats was broken off, and the floors were wet and sticky after the first hour. There was water on the floor as well as paper towels, and other stuff I won't describe.
The reasoning behind it is so the janitor will only have the one bathroom to clean at the end of the night.
So, I spent 14 hours from start to finish with the school bus. This was on Saturday, by the way.

On Sunday, my wife and I went to see our grand kids and of course the son in law and daughter.
I took Lilly to the Arundel Mills mall and walked her until she fell asleep. I bought her a hot dog and orange juice (her choice), and we visited many stores in addition to following the trail all the way around. I saw the place through her eyes and was very pleased.
When we got back, I got to play with Jackson for a bit before we headed back home. We stopped at Bob Evans where I got a potato crusted Flounder with Mixed Veggies and a baked potato. I left a lot of it on the plate, but was well satisfied and very full on the way home.
My wife enjoyed the day getting out of the house and out of the neighborhood in general. It snowed yesterday down South, but we didn't get anything here in Central PA.

I can't believe I did all this and am tired, but able to function.