I haven't gone to the support group meetings since my wife got sick because my heart was broken.
Since I was one of the long term people, I was looked upon as someone who had advice to offer. I didn't feel like offering advice, so I stopped going.
I am going to stop in tonight to see if I can pick up some information, and to feel like I'm part of something again.
The end of this month will be my 2 years anniversary for my WLS.
Wow, what a difference.
I will try to describe my feelings and experiences in the next blog entry.
Right now, I am still overwhelmed by my wife's situation.
I don't think she will be here much longer, but then again, I thought that a few months ago. i don't know when it will end, only that it will.
Ill write more tomorrow. I hope I get my batteries recharged at the meeting tonight.
July 1, 2010
June 28, 2010
Quitting
I was thinking of closing out this blog.
I seem to have run out of things related to WLS to say.
My life is so much about my wife dying, and my attempt to keep my head above water these days, that I seem so negative when I write.
I don't mean to be that way, but it's tough when life changes this drastically and absurdly.
I went to a picnic/BBQ/ jam session on Saturday.
It was a great reunion with classmates I haven't seen since 1971! Wow.
The bands were great, and I even got up to play a few songs. I had practiced one song, and ended up playing 4. I had help from a great drummer and my amp builder friend who sang harmony with me on a Beatles song. He also sang "Blackbird" while I played.
I met someone who had a sad story to tell, and they were grieving. I have been so wrapped up in myself, and have been telling the same sad story for so long, that I almost missed the fact that they were grieving and had more to deal with than me. My heart went out to them, and I did my best to listen and offer comfort, although I ended up offering advice along with the comfort.
On the WLS side, I ate 3 small meatballs, a small scoop of potato salad, a spoonful of baked beans. I brought my own Crystal lite bottle with me, added some water to it, and did just fine. I did stop on the way home for some coffee because it was a very late night.
I plan to play much more in the near future, and hopefully will get involved in the support group again, although I'm not sure about that right now.
It felt good to get up and play again. I couldn't even hold my guitar two years ago.
It will be two years at the end of July for me since my surgery. I didn't lose as much as I'd like, but I still have time. One step at a time.
I head in for the blood work next week if I can remember. I will schedule the doctor visit the following week. I'll try to report the results, good or bad.
I've been having issues with low blood sugar after working hard. I want to get that worked out.
I seem to have run out of things related to WLS to say.
My life is so much about my wife dying, and my attempt to keep my head above water these days, that I seem so negative when I write.
I don't mean to be that way, but it's tough when life changes this drastically and absurdly.
I went to a picnic/BBQ/ jam session on Saturday.
It was a great reunion with classmates I haven't seen since 1971! Wow.
The bands were great, and I even got up to play a few songs. I had practiced one song, and ended up playing 4. I had help from a great drummer and my amp builder friend who sang harmony with me on a Beatles song. He also sang "Blackbird" while I played.
I met someone who had a sad story to tell, and they were grieving. I have been so wrapped up in myself, and have been telling the same sad story for so long, that I almost missed the fact that they were grieving and had more to deal with than me. My heart went out to them, and I did my best to listen and offer comfort, although I ended up offering advice along with the comfort.
On the WLS side, I ate 3 small meatballs, a small scoop of potato salad, a spoonful of baked beans. I brought my own Crystal lite bottle with me, added some water to it, and did just fine. I did stop on the way home for some coffee because it was a very late night.
I plan to play much more in the near future, and hopefully will get involved in the support group again, although I'm not sure about that right now.
It felt good to get up and play again. I couldn't even hold my guitar two years ago.
It will be two years at the end of July for me since my surgery. I didn't lose as much as I'd like, but I still have time. One step at a time.
I head in for the blood work next week if I can remember. I will schedule the doctor visit the following week. I'll try to report the results, good or bad.
I've been having issues with low blood sugar after working hard. I want to get that worked out.
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