MIlestones and tears

I don't know what is going to happen tonight.
Will I laugh or cry?
You see, tonight is the "Drop your pants" weight loss support group meeting.
I will show up wearing my best suit from before my weight loss surgery, and drop it on the floor after modeling it. Of course, I hope to see many others who will do the same thing.
And also, I will be wearing my new clothes underneath, so it won't be that traumatic for the audience.
I haven't given this much thought until now. I am usually a ham and have no problems getting up in front of people, but I think this might be different.
I just tried the suit on and felt the stirring of emotions I haven't felt for a long time.
I never got to wear it when it was new. I never had the occasion. I bought it so I could play weddings as a DJ since I didn't like Tuxes. But, I never got to wear it.
So now, I have an expensive suit that is a clown outfit.
I am so glad it is a clown outfit and not the only dress suit that I can fit into.
I'll let you know what happens tonight.

Bad boy, bad boy, watcha gonna do?

I didn't go to the gym at all this week. A wave of fatigue swept over me and the dog ate it.
I got my exercise in other ways.
The grass was growing out of control, and I cut it 3 times. I also took a long walk, and got many little things done that I have been putting off.
It seems I have energy at certain times of the day, and I have to work at those times, or I won't get things finished.
I didn't take a nap until Thursday this week, but I went to bed at 8:30pm Wednesday evening. I just plain ran out of steam.
I have been in a panic mode and haven't been sleeping well. I believe that is part of my problem.
I spent a lot of time getting the paperwork together for the remortgaging of my home. That was very stressful for me. If it doesn't go through, we will lose the house and probably have to declare bankruptcy.
This will force me to do something I have been afraid to do for a long time.
So, weight loss has enabled me to do many more things than I could do before. It gave me a new chance at life. But, it didn't solve my personal problems.
I still feel good, however, and look forward to the next challenge.
I may even get back to the gym next week.