The answer?

Since I started writing this blog: (maybe not in order. My mind doesn't work like that!)

• I've re-mortgaged the house in order to consolidate monthly payments.
• Watched my wife get sick and die very slowly.
• Tried to counsel my son.
• Tried to counsel my future daughter in law.
• Lost my father to alzheimer's.
• Lost my brother in law.
  
• Lost both of my dogs.
• Lost all 4 of our cats. (The dogs were mine! The cats, not so much)
• Seen what 3 quarters of a million dollars worth of medical bills look like.
• Held more cash in my hands (actual cash) than I ever have in my entire life.
• Held power of attorney for the first time.
• Had major surgery.
• Been diagnosed with Celiac Sprue (I am being retested for this in the early summer because they don't think I fit the profile).
  
• Lost more weight than I ever have at one time, and kept most of it off.
• Bought a car just because I liked it, totally oblivious to the fact that it's a very impractical car.
• Had a guitar designed and built just for me.
• Had 2 amplifiers designed and built for me.
• Bought a TV that I can actually see without squinting.
• Gave away all of my clothing because they were too big.
• Bought all new clothing.
• Bought winter underwear that was comfortable and warm for the first time.
• Bought shoes that are comfortable and warm, and will be comfortable and cool in the summer.
• Cried more in 6 months than I have for the previous 56 years.
• Said "yes" more than I have in years.
• Said "no" more than I have in years.
• Came back early from a vacation.
• Rented a car bigger than a shoebox.
• Had total control over my life for the first time in my entire life.
• Prayed more than I ever have in my entire life.
• Been alone more than I ever have in my entire life, and not gone crazy.

What's next?
I have no idea but here is some of what I plan to do:

• Finish painting the house.
• Get rid of all the rest of the extra junk. The house will only have what I need in it.
• Start jogging.
• Walk at least 10 miles in one trip.
• Kayak at least once.
• Go to Florida for at least a week, maybe two.
• Write 15 songs.
• Write a book.
• Lose another 40 pounds or more.

So, what did you do the last 3 years?