With my wife being sick, it's a tradition for people in the community to cook meals for the folks who are going through the horrible ordeal.
That's a tough one for me.
First, it is hard for me to make new friends. It's not that I can't. I just have everything on my plate right now that I can handle.
I don't like accepting charity from others, no matter how good the intentions are.
So, I politely decline. I have an excuse. I had surgery. I also have Celiac. No wheat, gluten, Pasta, etc.
I eat like a bird and I like it that way.
Food is no longer an event. It's God's way of supplying my body with fuel. Darn tasty fuel sometimes.
So, with my wife being sick, I don't go out to eat much. I have gotten used to eating in the Hospital restaurants and shops. I like wraps the best because even though they have wheat in the wrap, they are all inclusive foods. I get my protein, carbs, veggies, etc. all in one. I usually buy a piece of fruit although most hospital fruit looks like it's been there for awhile. I also get decaf coffee, or diet iced tea. I hate the bottled water. It tastes like plastic to me.
I haven't been to the movies. The last one we saw together was Avatar. Great movie.
I quit netflix for now.
I was really thinking of dumping Comcast because of the cost, but I need to see the news, and really do like watching when I have no mental energy left to do anything else.
I need to go out food shopping more. I let stuff run out and then have to force myself to go.
I like BJs wholesale because I can save money and buy in quantity. But even that is not as much fun because I don't need that much. My cart is usually half full.
I haven't been out for a walk. The warmer weather has hit and I've gone out on my Helix, but haven't gone for a walk.
I really want to dig into the stuff at home and start packing things up and getting rid of things, but I only have so much time.
I have to get rid of the cat. I can't take care of it, and it's lonely.
There are so many things I want to do but can't right now. I hope that I can do some of them after my wife is gone.
The pictures show what I've been trying to accomplish in the house. She was a hoarder. I got rid of a whole huge trash truck of stuff a few years ago in order to clear out the basement. Now, I am going through her clothing and trying to clear out the closet and dresser so I can put my clothes in, instead of me having to throw them on a trunk.
You can see by the pictures that I have lots of work to do. The black plastic bags are filled with some of her clothes. I still have places to look for stuff. I brought up another container this morning and will dig in when I have time.
So, I need to walk.
I need to get out and enjoy the sunshine.
I need to really dig into the house and clear it out in preparation for sale or for me to restore it and start living again.
What I can't do, is not grieve.
1 comment:
My husband is a hoarder also, but he is actively trying to change that. He has a hard time getting rid of anything that he sees as having sentimental value. The problem is that everything has sentimental value to him! Still, he's getting better. I was looking closely at one of my own collections. I'm planning to get rid of it. The problem is that I know he will say that a lot of our past is wrapped up in it. We'll see how that goes! Good luck with your cleaning out. You will feel lighter and happier. I know I already feel better for having got rid of not just pounds but stuff!
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