Sunday

I didn't really want to do it, but I drove the school bus for a Sports run yesterday.
I left the garage around 6:20am, picked up the wrestling team at 6:45am, and got back to the garage about 6:30 that evening.
I spent the day talking with another driver who didn't recognize me. I had been fat when I last saw him. It took him awhile until he realized who he was talking to.

I took a short nap in the bus covered up with my down coat, but that was really short because of my sleep apnea. I kept waking up because I wasn't breathing. I thought that that would go away with the weight loss, but apparently not.
I also went inside the school and watched the wrestlers in order to warm up.
The school bus cools down quickly, and won't warm up unless it is being driven. So, even if we are sitting there with the engine running, it is still cold. The outside temperature was around 17 all day with a clear sky and lots of sun. The sun really didn't help because the wind was blowing hard. Walking from the bus to the school was torture, even with long johns, and a goose down coat.
I spent time driving down to the local Turkey Hill to get some cash and food (a small wrap) to supplement my peanut/cashew/raisin baggie. I also brought a protein bar and a shaker bottle of protein drink with me from home. It cooled down very nicely in the freezing bus.
I didn't think my feet would ever thaw!
When it came time to pick up the kids, I took the bus on a short drive down the road before I got them. That way the heater started to kick in. The bus warmed up after that.
So, I got 12 hours of work time added to my regular paycheck. I get another extra run in two weeks. This time, the trip will be longer, but the day will be shorter. They are only meeting with one team instead of 6. It's not a meet, in other words, just a match.
I started to write this morning, but realized that what is in my head will not come out easily. I am writing from my experience, and fighting with myself to write what I feel, and not cover up the emotions. It's tough because I have hidden my feelings away for so long now. It seems as if all I have left is anger.

I also started to list my stuff for sale in order to clean things up in my life. I think I spoke of that in a previous post. It's winter, and just after the holidays, so I'm not getting any nibbles even though the equipment is good and should be in demand.

I was trying to organize the small studio so I could set up my 6 foot table in order to do some work, but it turns out there is not enough room. So, I will have to relocate to the basement I think. It's still too cold, but I may just get around that by taking the space heaters down and spending the money to run them.

I guess I should mention that we had a great meeting the other night at support group. I learned a bit about food choices I hadn't known, and have to look up a few ideas.
The guest speaker was a plastic surgeon, but since I am not interested in having that done, I only half listened. The best part of the meeting was afterwards when we split into groups to talk. We are going to do that every month now, and may even have more than one meeting, so we have more time to discuss problems, tips and tricks.

Our Bariatric office is going to be selling vitamins and such directly starting in March, and it will be at their cost, so that will be a good thing. Our Dietitian likes to be on the cutting edge and is always showing us new things, so this should be great. I ordered my last vitamins and calcium online and they came through a bit crushed and crumbled. Hopefully, they will not be that way at the office.
My wife is still taking up most of my time, but she is getting stronger again and is not as much trouble. She will have one week off before she starts her next course of chemo, so I am hoping to get more "me" stuff done.

Oh, one more thing: I met someone at the meeting that I didn't recognize until they introduced themselves and told me where I knew them. I couldn't believe it, but it was the lady who was in the next room from me and had her surgery roughly the same time. You would never know that she was a Post! She looked great. She had makeup and hair done and could be a model. She not only looked good, but she was glowing and happy. I'm hoping that she contacts me on Facebook so we can catch up and compare notes. She told me that she reads the blog from time to time.